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Atone
You lied
Took from me my fragility
Left me jaded 
With no sense of responsibility
But I let you play with me
Mold me into what you wanted me to be
You had your fun
Stroked my heart 
With your lovely hand
Then tore it out
It was more than I could stand
With my bleeding heart in my hand
I've been picking up the pieces
And trying to understand
Where I went wrong
Why I let you hurt me 
And break me for so long
It was love but turned to pain
And a fear of being alone
Now from this mess I must atone.
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Bullshit :iconmelodiezmelz:Melodiezmelz 1 0
Poetry by Melodiezmelz Poetry :iconmelodiezmelz:Melodiezmelz 1 0
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Worthless :iconmelodiezmelz:Melodiezmelz 1 2
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Depression/Self Esteem
I'm gonna make you feel so small,
On your broken knees you'll crawl
I am your only friend
And I'll be the one to destroy you in the end
Make you feel worthless, uncertain and purposeless
And I'm so damn remorseless
Spend your days hiding in the dark,
The fears and guilt I feed you will hit their mark
Just one look in the mirror
And on a downward spiral you'll embark
Wallowing in self hatred and pity
This emotional ride I got you on is gonna make you dizzy
When you're up I'll drag you down,
You'll feel empty and in sadness drown
When you're down on your feet you'll be raised
Just so I can show you it's I who holds the reigns
Nobody likes you...
You're always forgotten
Nobody wants you...
And the scars inside
Nobody cares...
I am the only one that will always be there...
but I only offer you...
Pain...Sadness...Weakness and Fear...
Am I making myself clear?
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The Trip :iconmelodiezmelz:Melodiezmelz 1 0
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Religion At It's Best
I'm tired of all this arguing
You've gone that one step to far again
So as this game of who made who begins
I wonder if I can still call you friend
I'm why, when, how, who
You say I should or I'll burn in the end
Don't tell me who to be or how to live
I'm not your God
Cause the more you demean me
The harder it is to forgive
No Hail Mary's or prayers
Will your lack of morality be cleansed
Your constant prayer is hypocrisy
Didn't he already plan out your life for you
Kinda makes prayer pointless, empty and useless in truth
To me that makes little sense
The constant love that you preach is underscored
In his jealousy, fear, anger and more
These things you don't ever teach
They're just made into pretty little stories
Or quietly forgotten, put out of reach
No more "Stories" now my friend
If you want to drag me down and say I'm wrong
Maybe you should practice what you preach
Read that book from cover to cover
And live by ALL that it has to teach
I'm sure in time you will come to see
Why I'm
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Last Warning
This rage inside is bubbling and boiling
Pressure is rising, but my stomach is falling
The fractions of hate in my soul are clawing
And I'm close to the kill, my adrenaline is soaring
Your voice in my head on repeat is daunting
Oh how your existence in my life 
Is like a rash i keep clawing
Anymore from you and I'll explode
This is your very last warning.
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God Damn Mess :iconmelodiezmelz:Melodiezmelz 1 2
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Emotion
Here comes that feeling again
My throat and chest full of hot pain
And the emotion it washes over me
The past comes back in technicoloured nightmares
It's all i can see
The screaming, the anger, 
The disintegration of Melodie
I was wrong, I have to let it go
But it overwhelms me 
As I toss on this painful emotional sea
One step forward then two back 
And It's harder and harder to stay on this spot
The spot where i thought i was fine
Where i felt better after the passing of time
But still the emotions hit me 
In circumstances I can't control
I guess these memories will forever eat at my soul.
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Prince charming are you ok?
'I'm fine my beautiful darling.'
Heart thumps
Prince charming how much do you love me?
'To the moon and back my dear,
For you are the most fair creature I have ever laid eyes upon.'
Blood pumps.
Prince charming do you care about my feelings?
'Why of course, you matter more to me than the earth itself.
For to me, you are the earth itself.'
Scratching skin
Prince charming prince charming,
Why don't you care?
...
'Of course I care, I'm sorry for what ill I have done to bring upon you that frown.
For I vow on my knights honor, to give joy to this most noble woman that is my single shining star in life'
Clawing wrist
Prince charming prince charming
Why do you stare?
'Because, I cannot help but admire this wonderful kind lady before me. That has graced me with her love'
Breathing labored
Oh my prince,
Why are you distant,
For in this instant.
You don't seem to care.
'Of course I care, for matter so much to me you do, my beautiful lady.'
Heart giving out
Prince cha
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                            I fight with a Monster everyday
                           A Monster disgusting and repulsive,
                           That hates me to the core.
                           Bringing pain and misery
                                 We Fight,
                            On a violent roller coaster,
                                          Up
                       
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Got these tops for my piercings today! <3 Devyn said :Muuuuuum!! i'm so not introducing you to my friends parents...Piper actually sang a song: My mother has swear words on her faaaaaace! What is this world coming to?😂😂
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You lied
Took from me my fragility
Left me jaded 
With no sense of responsibility
But I let you play with me
Mold me into what you wanted me to be
You had your fun
Stroked my heart 
With your lovely hand
Then tore it out
It was more than I could stand
With my bleeding heart in my hand
I've been picking up the pieces
And trying to understand
Where I went wrong
Why I let you hurt me 
And break me for so long
It was love but turned to pain
And a fear of being alone
Now from this mess I must atone.
Parents...pls don't force your children to eat everything on their plate...i stress this because my mother did this to me and my siblings and it gave me an eating disorder...it made me always eat what was on my plate no matter how much food was on it or how much i felt sick from eating so much...i ended up bulimic at the age of 17 and i lost so much weight that i was extremely sick..i got down to 40kg and it was an uphill battle to stop the cycle of abuse i was doing to myself....at the age of 23 i hit 76kg and my brain kicked into the anorexic me and i didn't eat for 13 weeks..i drunk a lot of alcohol and water, exersized way too much and im surprised i didnt kill myself...i lost a lot of weight and it nearly killed me when i tried to eat again...the pain was tremendous and i suffered all day and night for months till my body could handle food again...i would never wish this on my worst enemy....now i have a 17 year old daughter who i have recently found out has an eating disorder, ..she has been diagnosed with anorexia and it hurts me down to my soul...as much as it pains me i have to force her to eat and it is extremely hard not to be triggered by it...luckily she hasn't started purging like i did but she is close because she binges and eats in secret and i know how fast it is to slip into that purge cycle...but we are living day by day and i just hope that she will come out of it with the knowledge that she cant starve herself and that she is beautiful and that food is not her enemy...i will always live with anorexic me, i fight it daily just like any addict does and i am hoping that i can help my daughter get past the cycle of self abuse she is in without slipping back into it myself...pls help your kids have a healthy relationship with food so that you dont have to endure the same problem....

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Ironstar7 Featured By Owner 1 day ago
Thanks for the horror add! <3
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 1 day ago
You're very welcome :)
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NotRightInTheHead74 Featured By Owner 3 days ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the add! :-)
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 3 days ago
You're very welcome
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winds-of-chaos Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch.
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 4 days ago
You're very welcome :)
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KnightFlyte96 Featured By Owner 5 days ago  Professional Digital Artist
thanx for the fav & for watching;)
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 5 days ago
Very welcome :P :)
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TWISTEDFREAK666 Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Hairy Skull Headbang right by ReSkull THANKS 4 THE WATCH MELODIE  Hairy Skull Headbang left by ReSkull
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Melodiezmelz Featured By Owner 6 days ago
Very Welcome!!! :P
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